Trying my luck! Cross fingers!

HOME SOOON :D YAY , but the down side...

Only for that 9 days and I will be gone for another 180days . MANNN.

positive thinking positive thinking !

I was in rageeee because someone I love woke me up when I just fell asleep waiting for him to come skype. LOL. I think I had a head cramp.

This is Cherry and I am smiling :) you should too!

Hi world , I know nobody reads my blog . It's a good thing , the lesser people who read it, the better :)

Past 2 days were quite , miserable . Because I miss TKF (I dislike the time difference between UK and the US >:( )

After missing TKF , I started missing food I eat at home, home cooked food by my maid . Then , I miss my friends MAMAMAMAMA .

Duh , I SURELY MISSED MY FAMILY TOO! My Don Don , and the worst part , my mama told me our coil fishie all died :'(( BECAUSE , the Indonesian Gardener that comes every 2 weesk sprayed some plant med which is poisonous into the pond and it killed all our fish ! Sigh , if I was back home , I would have cried for days . My mummy told me , we as human must learn to let go of things , and accept the fact that everyone will leave us one day . Even my fishie and my dog , donut . Our life is surely fragile , no matter how good we are in life , death is still at our finishing line , happily waiting for us . BUT YOU KNOW WHAT ! Because we are happy people, that is if you want to be a happy person , always look to the most positive side of your life , even if it sucks at some moments , things will pass , everything will eventually fall into its place . It's really okay to be sad , but not for too long , because life is pendek.

People out there ! Remember , there is always people , who are in a worser situation than you are in now .So , Smile like there's no tomorrow ! Count your blessings !

TA , english class now ! kekekke .

I need someone to put me to sleep .

happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times,

if one only remembers to turn on the light :)

Can I ? Can You ?

Can We

Maybe we should just let things happen by its own .

Maybe we should stop being too cautious or sensitive.

Maybe we should just look at things in a totally different way.

Sammie !

this I tell myself , every single second I feel the fear crawling back .

I had the worst day ever. August 3rd 2010.

I failed my 2nd attempt for my driving license & I was so upset , I cried like someone I loved just died . I went through the day feeling like I'm stuck in a horrible nightmare , yearning for a physical comfort. Hoping someone could save me from this horrible place . I was so in pain and sadness not just because I failed my test ,it was a mixture of everything that happened in a week's time. I was TOO homesick , TOO alone , TOO helpless & so I couldn't take the failure . No one can imagine what I am going through here in the States but me . Even if I tell you every single detail in my story , no one would understand . :)

I understand God gave me these experiences so I could grow up . Be independent & strong .

I cried so much last night till the extend that I had no more tears when I had to cry more . literally no more tears. I was in great pain . Gosh , I thought I was going insane. I din't have my goodnight sleep & I had to ring up my baby at 5a.m. my time , telling about me analyzing how did I fail my test . While talking to him , I was crying , I was shaking and I was in fear. I was confused , I can't think straight . & today , I had blardy period cramp the whole day. But , I had to still cook for myself & also for my uncle for dinner . I had to go through all these little tough times which I din't have to back home . I was totally pampered back home. When I am hungry , i did not need to worry on what to cook , what can i make, will it taste good & so on . When I'm tired , I could just go to bed & not worry about the world because I know I could depend on so many people . Everything is done for me back in Malaysia .

Is a life time experience here.

I experienced my first dog bite & thought I was getting rabbies . My pinky bleed so much .

I dislike drinking soup back home , but now I'm making soup whenever I can because I miss it so much.

I experienced many helpless moments .

I experienced frustrating moments which I had to just cool myself down & move on as soon as I can.

I experienced moments which I fall & had to pick myself up right away , even when I had a bleeding finger because I cut myself .

Life is not easy , especially when you're alone.

I learned that , we, people seriously take many , many things for granted .

I'm good today , I'm strong , and if I am going to fail once more , or gazillion times more , I am ready. Bring it on :)

& he is my superbaby . My strength :) He throws harsh remarks and comments when he has to . Even when I was crying like crazy , he tells me things I have to listen ,not things I want to listen. He tells me he's sorry when I'm ok & I know he loves me . Because , he has shown me patience beyond patience towards his crazy awesomee sammie :) & I miss him so so much.

I miss my mummy & daddy so much .They have been constantly talking to me , telling me what to do when I'm faced with issues.

& my annoying sister that I always quarrel with , she gives me virtual kisses whenever we skype.

& my brother that helps me when I needed help.

I miss my maid .

I miss my home .

I miss my lovely friends.

But hey , the making of grown up sammie is in process ! :)

HAVE NO FEAR.

LOVE .

DAMN HOMESICK.

Whenever I talk to someone back home , I feel so secure & it really,really, does feels like a dream . Right after talking to them , I feel like I'm brought straight back to reality . & for now , REALITY SUCKS SO, SO BADLY . It's getting hard to handle.

I definitely hope it gets better. ):

I am all alone in a place so far away , for once I realized what is the true meaning of being helpless. No one to depend on but yourself . GAAWDDDD. D: D: D:

This is a bad,rough,tough week.

SAMMIE.

TO: MY BELOVED PRINGLEY ,< my own version of pleakley okay :)

*if you can , please read this post with a sammie tone . Thank you.



I think I'm the only one that din't start calling you names with the scandal word inside , because I is special . I know I super wannabe , but you know me , I even claimed that I'm snowball myself . it's sammie , the one you love ,what to do. HAHA , omgosh ew. I can imagine your ew face right now . :D

ANYWAY , a very

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TAMMY LIM MEI ERN .

I'm not really good with words but I am still trying my UTMOST best to type you a nice post , just for your birthday , since you're QUITE special to me :) hhehehe , we are engaged , have to do something special la duh (;

& I know i know i hardly , almost never compliment you ever ever before , because you're pringley , and that explains everything already but it's your special day so I'm going to bring down my pride of disliking to compliment others but myself and say a few nice words to you .

I am really glad that I get to know you and then know you better . I'm proud that I have such a good girlfriend like you. Even though we weren't close at the very beginning of our friendship , but you stood by me & pat with me:D . Slowly, I started to enjoy your company and being around you makes me feel comfortable too! yay!
You are a big ginormous MEAN princess , constantly throwing mean remarks to nice people like ME , HELLO! Haha, you took every opportunity to say mean things to me , & all my responses were just , 'yer you so meannn .. or NOOOOOHH or I'll just give you one of the many sammie looks ' Its up to your imagination to imagine which one i gave . HAHA .

I still like being your friend nevertheless and I was so worried when you got so cold to me once but actually you were facing some problems & was disappointed with things ( not because of me :) ) & I'm sorry (even if it's not my fault , haha) that you have to go through that disappointment ( until now , I still dont know what was that actually about) & I wasnt around to give you my super awesome CHEER. It's okay , it's the past and what matters now is the future , RIGHT ! This year , we're both in different colleges but we still update one another , very often :D Thank God , I have you around to be weird with . You always ask why do you have such a weird friend like me , and i'll reveal the answer to you today , it is because you are damn weird yourself too & so we CLICK , don't you get it , dumb pringley ! :P

Thank God that I have you around to listen to my complaints and problems and all my rants . For being there for me when I needed someone .

Thank you for being such an awesome friend
Thank you for giving me a chance to get to know you better and better each and everyday
Thank you for all the random skype calls & patting session .
Thank you for sharing , because sharing is caring . So it means you care for me , duh of course you do ! <3>HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TAMS (again) ! I'M SAMS !!!! HAHAHAHAHA :D ok . nvm .

Hope that you'll have a blast on your birthday this year , & all the best in everything you do .
I hope that jumba & pringley will be BFF. (even if jumba will be far far away soon) ):

LOTS OF LOVE ,
JUMMMBAAAAAAAAAA :D THE FAT ONE . & you're the ultimate skinny one . TEEHEEE .

29th of June 2010 will mark the beginning of everything new .

I , SAMANTHA SEAH CHEOK WEI , will be flying to the United States of America to further my studies & will then be hired to work in the World Bank in the future :)

GOD BLESS ME ,

GOD BLESS AMERICA . <>

SAMMIE.