I miss those hardcore basketball days.

I miss those days where running gave me great satisfactions.

I have, unfortunately, reached the period where I want to stop myself from aging.
I still remember counting the years till I can finally get out of school, and unconsciously, I'm getting out of school pretty soon! At least, I can count them with only my two fingers. :(

Now, given my freedom, I have responsibilities that I have to deal with every day.
I chose to be in a long distance relationship which is the stupidest thing, and I am constantly fighting for this relationship, because I need it to all fall into place at the end, I HAVE FAITH.
I, myself, have to apply for internships myself, WHY CAN'T MY PARENTS DO IT FOR ME, just saying, hehe!
I am getting nowhere with this post but you will get my point ;). Well, on a brighter note,growing up isn't ALL that bad, but just saying, growing up gives you more bad days, than EXTREMELY HAPPY days. So , you just got to be damn grateful about everything in life.

I am grateful and contented and proud to say that, I HAD A PRETTY DAMN GOOD CHILDHOOD that I miss from time to time. :)

IT HAS BEEN AGES

I have a sudden urge to blog about my bleeh day :/

I jammed my thumb playing volleyball yesterday & it's hurting a lot.
I am an insomniac. I haven't had any proper sleeps for nights & sometimes it kinda scares me because this hasn't happen to me before. I start to think whether some cancer just appeared in me, or is a sign from my body telling me I AM SICK. or.. I JUST NEED TO GET AWAY FROM LIFE FOR AWHILE. :(
I have been experiencing some internal struggles & it kept me thinking maybe God is testing me. Maybe he wants me to grow in him & to depend on him more, so yes, let the struggles continue but honestly, I am running out of energy. God, you are my strength.
Just last night, I found out that the application to transfer to University of Texas, Austin is due 1st of Feb instead of 1st of March ,which was on their website. But, it was a stupid misunderstanding I made so I had a mini heart attack when I knew I only had 2 days to get together two essays. Yes, I was quite f*****, but ! I gather up my strength, prayed to God, and started writing my essays, AND FORTUNATELY, with the help of an English tutor at school today, I managed to finish both essays. V^^ I DID NOT GIVE UP & I OWNED THE DATELINE'S BUTT.

My relationship life hasn't been that good either, my other half and I have been arguing & upsetting each other off and on and it seems like it's never ending. Sadly, it is tiring me out too :(I is very worn out. I am trying so hard to be the "ideal" girlfriend & I am pretty sure he is trying to play his part too but, THINGS ARE JUST NOT WORKING OUT THE WAY IT SHOULD BE. :'( Ironically, after being together for three whole years,& only today, I realized that he doesn't actually know me that well and apparently, I don't either -____-" what the heck ? I WANT TO KEEERAAAII. I don't know where are we heading to but I hope it wouldn't end bad. sigh sigh sigh sigh sighhh.

SO MUCH FOR GROWING UP,
let me have my sleep.